either good or bad, and if you attach it to good memories, of course, you're going to tend to repeat those. if christmas for you brings up a time of strife, conflict, i'm not with my family, we're divorced or we're separated, whatever, of course, and we know that's a very depressing time. my suggestion is that people develop a new habit. create a new habit and attach it to the holiday instead of continuing to look backwards. when i was 3 years old, i asked my mother, why do we have christmas? and my mom said, it's jesus' birthday. as a 3-year-old, my mind was, why don't we have a birthday party? i said, we can have cake and cool-aid, and a ladder and angels could come down and be with us. that year, we started a birthday party for jesus. this year, we will do that for the 55th time. >> really? >> in my life, it is a tradition, we call it birthday party for jesus. we do it on christmas eve.